I WANT TO MOVE OUT.
i really want to.

i hate her. i hate how she likes to find fault with me when i am trying my best.
i hate how i am restricted financially, i hate me for who i am.

sometimes i just think that maybe i would be better off as a mute or a deaf person. then she wouldn't be able to find faults with me.

i know i shouldnt be saying all these but i just cannot take it sometimes. i want to have my own family, one that can be like regular warm family.

i hate the fact that MONEY breaks up my whole family.
splitting of inheritance, problems that make us cranky, greed of earning more that takes all my time.

i just don't know what to do. i don't know what she wants. i dont know what HE wants and plans.


26He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.--- was it meant for me?

im afraid of the world.

even though i feel like i am growing spiritually small steps at a time, falling and picking myself up with the help of friends, more and more problems are thrown at me one after another. maybe he's testing me.

give me a way.

this is gonna be damn emo.

i feel like hiding from the whole world right now.
the stress from time that past and cannot be turned back
the impending dateline
the helplessness im feeling now since i can't view a single thing on this com
and that someone

i want to go back to the father and only see him. but i know that would only be not facing the challenge he has given me that he knows i can overcome. i just feel so messed up in the head that i don't even know what to do. it doesn't help when im feeling so confused over matters of the heart.

GOD JUST SAVE ME.

im really helpless now. tell me what to do. give me directions.

IM LOST

started the day off really bad today.

1st i forgot my thumbdrive and there was a discussion that was to be graded but by then it was too late to go home. then on my way walking into school, my necklace broke.

then went to com lab to go refind for the articles cos i know where to find then had trouble printing then my friend accidentally shut down the com.. my other friend said nvm cos got history so i was like OH YA HOR.. then when the com on again the history was not recorded. so i had to look for it again then send to my email.

anyway after that when we had break and went to do our intro to ht grp project i suddenly felt so depressed cos it's like as though our project never really moved at all from the start to now. i dunno what to do and how to do.

projects just ruined my life.

can't believe it's gonna cont for the next 2 and a half years...

IM SAD.


listen to this song.. got it from dawn's web.




The thing about love
Is i never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering
Is this true, i want to hear it one more time
Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder
Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again
Thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there’s no end in sight
The thing about me is that i really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life
Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder
Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
And it feels like it’s the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name
Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love

Say it again (x9)

When you tell me you’re in love…
Say it again
Ohhh...Ohhhhhh

i wish

i pon POM lecture again.. my goodness i hope i wont be so lost tutorial. anyway, im seriously glad im still surviving poly cos with the amount of blurness i have, i don't know how many more times this kind of thing will happen to me.

first, i couldnt find my timetable. then after the LONG 2 weeks break, i absolutely cannot remember what subjects i have today so i anyhow pick the textbooks to bring. then turns out i brought extra textbook and my bag was damn heavy.

2nd, i was reminded by my friend on the bus that there was PBL consultation 3. AND I FREAKED OUT. i mean i knew of it but it slipped my mind cos i didnt have my timetable. but when the consultation started, it turned out pretty well.. maybe cos we were the first group and the teacher was in a good mood so it wasn't that bad. and we came up with ideas on the spot. HAHAHA which was good lah.

3rd, i found out that we were suppose to do in total 4 articles instead of 2. so i was like CRAP. that's when i decided to skip lecture and do my analysis. but i didnt do much before sarah's laptop batt flat(she didnt bring charger). so i was left with absolutely nothing to do and nobody to be with me. then suddenly like got no friends. HAHAHAH so i just read a book(also about a person with no friends HAHAHAH what luck) then when i was absorbed into the story, my friends called me cos the lecture was over.

soo.. that was my day. haha OHHH i saw wan zhen for the 1st time in school. hahha STARED at her for a while before she noticed me.

tmr must go school earlier to discuss project.. i never reseach on whatever im suppose to. HHAHAH i'll just randomly propose something lah.

to further prove how screwed my body clock is, i couldnt sleep at 2am ytd. so tossed and turned until maybe 3am then fell asleep. the suppose to wake up at 6am so that i wont rush and end up forgetting things that are very important for my report that has to be submitted today BUT i didnt hear it so onlt woke up at 630. ended up rushing anyhow. then went for to school at the usual time. as per normal, the train was crowded that i was praying for a seat cos i was still feeling sleepy. then i saw a girl, seating down, holding a SP book. hahah so i knew she would be getting off at dover so i stood like infront of her. HEH HEH. and i got my seat. so i slept....... then when i finally woke up with a call from my friend, i looked at the clock on my phone and 8.45????? i shouldnt even still be on the train at 845!! then the train also like suddenly FILLED with pple. which shouldn't happen if im nearing tampines... so i waited for the announcement. PAYA LEBAR.

MY GOODNESS. how stupid can. i slept all the way to pasir ris and NO KIND SOUL woke me up. ok fine maybe they tried. and then the train went past tampines again and to paya lebar. SOOOO i was late. ONCE AGAIN. how not surprising right. when i finally reach tp, it was like 930. i totally didnt want to go into the lecture hall lor. SO EMBARRASSING LEH. everybody will be looking at you. but you see being such a good girl (HAHA), i still went in. AND YEA. EVERYONE LOOKED AT ME. then once i sat down, KS was like 'no wonder i felt like something's missing.' hell funny KS. then on my other side was Alister, whom i didnt notice cos i was busy making myself look at the floor to save myself from embarrassment. he also!! right after KS made his statement, he's like 'Grace, you very early hor.' and still look at his watch. i was like ' LONG STORY.'

yes. joke of the day. laugh all you want. laughter is the best medicine :)

my body clock is seriously screwed up lah.
on friday, i went to mel's house to do my work cos need to borrow her laptop. so i worked through the whole night and only slept at 6 plus when i reached home.
then i woke up at like 11 to prepare to go for work. sucked lah.. work starts at 5 and i have to go there at like 130 to bring new pple there. and im not even getting paid extra. GUESS WHAT. pple can be so irresponsible. just because they think that it's so damn early, they decided to be late and dont even call to tell us. making us look like a big loser waiting for like 1hr at orchard.

i was feeling so tired when work started but i was amazed at how i was able to memorise EVERY COURSE of the menu.. hahah cos i was like brain dead due to lack of sleep. then i think cos i so long never work already, my back and legs was aching like crap. then after the event, i had to carry all the centre pieces away and its SOOO heavy can. i carried like at least 8. then from then on, my mood became REALLY bad and i was using the f word, which i know i shouldn't be using but i really couldnt help it. i was supposed to end work at 1 but guess what. cos im such a hard working girl and i dont look at the time while working, i worked past 1 and by that time the transport would have already left and had to stay till 2.. that made my temper worse cos nobody even called for the 1am staff. SIGH.. what i get for being hardworking.

then when i could finally go home, there were so many pple on the same transport route that i reached home at 4am. was so tired on the van lah but couldnt sleep properly.. was half-awake and half-asleep. throughout the whole journey, both kairul and i were half-wake half asleep. then he keep leaning onto me, so i just shoved him away saying in that sleepy tone 'kai! you damn heavy lah' hahah and i kept knocking my head on the window. after we finally woke up, i couldnt sleep anymore but i kept disturbing him cos he still wanted to sleep.

reach home at 4 then still have to bathe and wash my hair so ended up sleeping at 530 and woke up with ABBY'S call at 1045. RUSHED out of the house in 5mins and made my way to TPYM. reached there late and couldn't call abby, or shaun. so being so helpless and unfamiliar with the environment, i just followed the sound of worship and went to their sanctuary. i thought it was the right one but could find anyone i knew then someone came up to me and asked if i was looking for shaun then brought me to where TPYM was having their service.

i like their service. like it's really for the youngsters and it is the same pple that take up roles to serve god, which in my church, you can easily hid from it cos there are always older pple who seem more capable of doing a better job.

then we had lunch and dawn met us and went back to church. then i started on my reports while most of the others had exco meeting. after all the meetings, and i had completed my reports, we( suzanne, abby, jacob, clement, shaun, ling hui , jolene and me) went to eat dinner. we went to FOOD ADDICT and we met bonnie and lawrence. actually the place is bonnie's sister's so not surprising to see bonnie there i guess. then law and bonnie are one family, extended family. hahah another explaination. hahah should be correct if i didnt hear wrongly. hahah DINNER WAS GREAT LAH.. realised how funny jolene is. she's very cute can and motherly. and it's a COMPLIMENT. really.

ohhh best part of dinner.

they decided to play a joke on me cos i ordered cake. i was wondering why the cake so long then i see shaun and law SNEAKILY hiding the cake. at first i thought it was meant for law's mum i think cos it's her birthday but we already sang her a song just now and she had her cake liao. so i thought maybe 2nd round or something

then they headed to our table then everyone STARED at me and started to sing a birthday song. i was like WHATTTTTTTT.. hhaha and they wanted me to play along with them lor. take photo happily like it's my birthday today.then still must cut the originally small cake into 8 pieces. OHH then i gave everyone one piece and suzanne ate the cake then suddenly she gave that damn shocked look and everybody looked like thay just remembered something. she's lactose-intolerant. kept asking her to spit it out but she didnt want to. she said she'll get a stomach ache when she takes things with milk... hope she's fine..

im tired of typing liao.. haha got ALOT more lor.. maybe tmr..

just a reminder for myself.
serving, is ultimately for God. you must know why you are doing it and even so, do it with a humble heart and all.
there is no such thing as a better role or what someone can take in church
whether you are the one wiping the floor after service or the speaker, they are each serving God in their own ways.
it is only through this where we all function as various parts, that we form a body with a head that is led by Christ
- Shaun tan. :)

I DUNNO HOW TO DO A STUPID NEWS ANALYSIS. and i just remembered i have a damn sample at home.. so im just waiting till the stupid buses start operating.. now i lost my sleep but my body is so so so so tired.. how am i gonna go work? i've decided to like quit or at least put my feet down and say NO WORK WHILE SCHOOLING.. its too hard. JUST MURDER ME NOW.. BOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

IM SO TIRED.. my body is and my eyes are. and im hungry...

i still need to finish my stupid reports. im not even done with one yet.. GOSH.. kill me.. then i got work also tmr... wa lao. i super dont want to go lor.. whole day call me to go work.. i mean i want to money but its really nerve wreaking to go work when you know you got project due and you're not even done with those yet.. i totally don't need to sleep lor.. then tmr suppose to start work at 5 but they freaking want me to be there by 1.30 an i need 2 hours to prepare to get out of the house so meaning i need to be awake by like 11am.. i super can don't need to sleep lor cos once i sleep confirm cannot wake up one. then working til 1 am then got church the next day.. anyway this week not going to my church.. going to tp.. then can see CONNECT CAMP FRIENDS!!! hahah ABBBBBBYYY.. hahah totally miss them.. then shaun can help me to insert some random graphs into my report so that it looks like got more substance.. HAHAAH good impression at least.. hahah

at mel's house and she's sleeping like a PIG.. hahah anyway she ought to since it's official 'sleeping time' but she told me to wake her at 12.45 lor... and she didnt want to wake up. hahahah pigpigpigpig

i realised that i know alot of pple but i always find it hard to continue talking to them.. then end up being so distant...

OH WELLS. i should get back to work..
ouch my butt and back hurts from sitting to long

:(

i wish i could always stay as a child. i wish to go back to the protected world i once had in school. at least the problem i had now seems so small and harmless. i miss the times.

darn... don't have much nice photos.. it's so hard to even meet up altogether.. probably next outing then..

when PRINCESS RACHEL ONGY comes back.. hahah i wonder if she'll have some accent. hahahah

and of course a new group of girl friends i have made recently

have the cutest one and the most thoughtful one. hahaha then plus me the loudest one. hhahahah

i hate myself for how i am.





im extremely upset now. MEL WHERE ARE YOU!!!!!

i seriously hate projects.. gosh it's so draining can.. thank goodness i started early and have such a kind hearted senior to help me...

SHAUN! thank you so much. i wouldn't know what state my projects would be in now if i didnt know you. and im really thankful for your patience with me.

gonna go on my 'field trip' later.. pulled my lazy butt out of bed so that i would be fully prepared for my field trip later on.. hahah NEW YORK NEW YORK! HMMMM just thinking about it and im hungry hahhah

is he the one?

i really thought he was the one but then again... maybe not.

what if history repeats itself?

give me some sign please







anyway i wanted to continue with my previous post about what happened on the way back home from camp but i kind of just lost that 'thing' for writing about that.. so if you want to know just ask me.



anyway working ytd was a blast.. hahah it was fun and boring at the same time.. seriously i think every customer had a good laugh at my almost gone voice that was sometimes high, sometimes low, and sometimes gone. hahaha the small boss wanted me to play foosball with him cos he was bored and i was too. hahah i totally didnt want cos i have BAD coordination, anyway i just played and i won by 2 -1. hahahah then i stopped playing cos i lost my voice from trying to scream cos i couldn't block the ball.. hahah..



i got 2 projects due when school reopen. what am i suppose to do???? ah... everything blur blur. i hate poly life.



give me an answer. show me some signs

i NEED to declare this!!!!

CAC CONNECT CAMP IS THAT BEST CAMP I EVER HAD SO FAR!!!

God answered so many many of my problems i had before i went to the camp..

1. had some friends problem in my class previously and GOD PUT 3 OTHER AMAZING GIRLS IN MY GROUP.. so much in common with them.. it's like every thing that we randomly talk about, some of us ever experience the some thing before also or like we TOTALLY can relate to it. had great, deep heart to heart talk with every one of them.




2. was thinking how i cannot find anyone to talk to about in school who can give me advice or listen to me and keep reminding me of God but i met 2 seniors(shaun and wan zhen) in the camp of HTM course also and in tp.. hahah and had a great and loooooong talk with shaun just now.




3. about my recent idea of not letting our cell group continue being in cliques and encouraging pple to take an extra step to know other pple, God showed me the big difference if our church was not in cliques.. and it is really amazing




4. i haven't actually been listening to sermons much.. more like not paying attention and God brought such a wonderful speaker to speak at the camp, letting me bring back alot with me and think alot about what holy communion really meant, which more often than not i just do for the sake of doing.




5. i have been praying alot for the right guy that is meant for me to appear but i 'didn't prepare for it' but through this camp, a particular workshop, 'how far can we go' really make me think about and 'prepare' for a relationship and what i should look for in a guy.




6. i've had money problems cos food in singapore is really TOO ex but in this camp i realised that BPMC chinese side probably received the largest subsidy but ate the same as everyone else and the food WAS JUST GREAT




7. i actually had some feelings like many pple dislike me but at this camp i realised that many pple accepted me for who i was even though im like really noisy. hahah and i learnt that i can actually have alot patience when pple make fun of me so i just hope i can have the same patience with my family since we are living together but it's already so hard now.. the moment i see my mum conflict arises again

i really made alot of friends from this camp, and i think i grew spiritually too.. i just pray that i can continue growing spiritually even though the camp ended and can maintain these friendships

anyway i gained a nickname '5 strips' due to a game we play. 'harry & mary' game. ok so this is how the game goes.. all the guys are called harry and all the girls are called mary. let's say you point to a guy, and say 'hi harry'. that guy's suppose to reply 'yes mary' to me. then i'll point to another person and say 'tell that to harry/mary'

SOUNDS EASY RIGHT?? but if you say/reply wrongly, you get a piece of masking tape on you.. can be any length and pasted anywhere on your body.. if you make one mistake and get a strip, your name is now 1 strip and so on..

don't think you can make so many mistakes right cos i mean it's just three diff sentences.. BUT i made 5 lahhh.. it started cos i was thinking that the game was boring then just aiya anyhow play.. so from 1 strip turn to 2 to 3 then finally 5.. the biggest loser lah hahah but it was fun lah and that's how our group name came about.. MUMMIES!!

then let's see.. 2nd day we had external activities.. even though our group didn't win much i think i had a lot of fun doing dumb things and letting pple laugh at me.the best part was getting wet lah although i wasnt really soaking wet. hhaha only my butt cos had to seat on the table to protect our ping pong ball. then everybody so wet walking to the bus stop and squeezing onto the same bus.. we stank up the whole bus lah.. hahah seriously..when on the way to have dinner, first time i talked to shaun.. hahah then he keep disturbing me cos i very high pitch and talk very fast.. very lame lor.. keep wanting me to rap cos i talk very fast.. he and clement gang up lor.. then make ABBY laugh like crap can... her whole face turned red, like gonna start crying..

OHHH and my bunk mate said that i grind my teeth on the first night but a lot of pple don't believe so ABBY came to sleep beside me and i told her to record the sound cos i never hear before myself cos it's a subconscious thing.. but the next day when i woke up she said it was like the sound of phone vibrating.. hahahah and she got scared.. cos it's like as though the bear preparing to eat you up. then the whole group keep making a joke out of it. hahah say what stuff twisties in my mouth, bite onto blanket.. hahah alot lah.. cannot even remember.

then also 3rd day we had free time for games in our camp grounds.. i didn't want to perspire so i played board games! i played 'the big TABOO' with dawn, jasmine and... er i forgot the last one.. oh no i was just talking to her before she went home... anyway me and dawn was a team and jasmine and the other girl was another team.. me and dawn SUCKED.. hahah we lost real bad.. but we had alot of fun from that game.. laugh until cannot play already...

ok im gonna end here for now cos im tired from typing.. hhah plus i got not much photos to upload..

this is a damn random thing i went to search..
hahhah pick up lines

" Do you believe in love at first sight, or should I walk by again? "

" Say "I bet I can kiss you on the lips without touching you." and kiss her, then tell her you lost the bet. "

" I want to tell you your fortune. [Take her hand and write your phone number on it.] Your future is clear. "

" If you stood in front of a mirror and held up 11 roses, you would see 12 of the most beautiful things in the world. "

"If I were a stop light, I'd turn red everytime you passed by, just so I could stare at you a bit longer."

"You shouldn't wear makeup. It's messing with perfection!"

"If I had to choose between breathing and loving you.... I'd take my last breath to say "I Love You""

hahah that's all i could find that wasnt dirty but sort of sweet hahah
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MONEY IS MY ENEMY



seriously... im like totally not fated with it. i actually decided upon which laptop to get but now my mummy say not enough money... and it's like we just had a lot of conflict just now... mostly cos im not happy with the fact that we have not enough money..



not enough money for me to satisfy my cravings for food

not enough money for a new pair of shoes

not enough money for a laptop

no money in my piggy bank

probably not gonna have enough to go out and play for this holiday





the worst part is i cant even work part time cos now not much jobs available..



i really hate this feeling. cos in reality when you dont have money, there is nothing you can do..







but for now.. im gonna trust in you.. trust that you will provide for my needs

and i think you have already done so by sending me for a camp for the next 4 days so that i wouldnt be troubled by money problems..



lord, i know mainly it's my fault because i dont have good managing skills over my finances and falling into the temptations of my cravings something that is not even as real as you.. just help me in this area.. the area i am the weakest in. i just place all my needs in your hands because i really really do not know how to fufil them and i know you will provide whatever i need AMEN

ok got back from work like just now... it was

AMAZING

hahah it's been such a long time since i had been involved in such events... it was a WEDDING.
how long has it been since i had been involved in a wedding.. and NOT doing the VIP table?? hahah the only reason why i don't want to do VIP table for weddings is because there are alot of things you have to look out for and there are barely any good looking guys of our age to look at. hahahha

well good news today!!! ahahha so many good looking guys to look at. and plus SO MANY KIDS CAN.. my favourite lah.. i had 2 kids on my table.. the best lor.. and my partner wasnt that bad after all.. hahah he did most of the things while i was basically in the ballroom most of the time and i didn't even have to portion.. hahah my partner helped me and the captain helped me also. hahah

I FEEL SO LUCKY AND LOVED BY GOD.
only he can make such miracles happen

1st i was with KIARUL hahah i was praying so hard to let me be with kiarul cos anything i duno he can help me with it
2nd i got such a good partner
3rd oh ya i thought i was gonna be late but i reached like just on time, having enough time to eat and change
4th KIDS!!!!!
5th MANY MANY GOOD LOOKING GUYS FOR ME TO SEE
6th i was damn well liked by everyone.. HAHAH



dear lord, you really work things in your own way... i would have never imagined today to have turned out in this manner.. whatever that i thought would have got in my way today, you cleared it all for me. i feel you again.. maybe it was just me thinking that i couldn't feel you even if you were just next to me, that you were not listening to me.. but i'll try to learn.. learn to leave things in your hands, to your perfect plans... BUT COULD YOU JUST SEND ME MY PRINCE CHARMING PLEASE?AMEN


i discovered this song sang by danson tang and i think it's damn nice
listen to it...

BACK FROM CG17 RETREAT

ok basically it was a very short camp.. i reached church at like 6.30? and we started the bbq.. but i felt that this retreat didn't bring us together as CG17 at all... and very first sight was the guys and girls separating. which is damn obvious... then we had the quiet group and noisy group for the girls... i was at the quiet group.. hahah don't be too shocked cos at church i always belong to the quiet side..

anyway so i already kind of regretted going for the camp.. but after bbq, we watched a movie called 'Facing the Giants' which is a really good christian movie.. it's really touching... then we had night games which was relatively fun cos everyone was trying to get along and stuff. like there was actually effort put into it maybe cos we were suppose to go through the night games as a group? my group was ok.. just that my group members keep thinking im angry.. hhahahah

then we slept at 3+am.. we woke up this morning at 8?
anyway the part i really want to get it off my chest was when we broke out into groups for talentnight.. we were suppose to spilt according to our usual CG group.. however the number of members in each group was too different.. after we combine also cannot so we(grp leaders) decided to reshuffle everybody.. but there were so many pple whose attitude was so bad... and i was put in charge of briefing, but i felt really offended when i was explaining and this girl went 'yah yah yah.. next next.' i mean i wouldn't mind if she was joking but i couldn't tell that she was joking.. it's like i felt so disliked then.. i mean it has been like this most of the time.. i feel like however i act and whatever i do, nobody ever likes me for who i am.. it shouldn't be this way should it? it's a church.. the place i find comfort in.. but sometimes... i never feel that way...

but anyhow, my own group came up with brilliant ideas cos, duh, they have me. hahah and we actually had a lot of fun... i thought we had like at least a better bond even if it wasn't a BIG change.. and i think the other group had a good bit of fun too.. but at the end of the day we still broke up into our cliques.



dear lord, you know how it has been for me in church since young.. you know i suffered quite a bit for just merely liking someone and it still stays with me.. no matter what i do and how i have since changed, i still get that same kind of treatment.. i hate it. i really hate it. maybe the problem does not lie in those pple alone.. maybe in me too.. i really don't know.. if there is a problem with me, help me realise it and change it with your holy words.. let your words be deeply engraved in my heart so that no matter what happens i know you still love me and all that matters is you.
AMEN

i should have woke up at 7 but me, being such a tired and lazy pig woke up at 9 instead.. and i should be packing my bag but im here blogging instead.. let me think through my pack list first then

pack list for 2 days, 1 night
bring 2 shirts plus 1 im wearing
2 shorts plus one wearing
soap & shampoo & face wash
towel
undergarments
contact lens solution and cover
hair curler, nail clipper, nail buffer

did i miss out anything??? ok no. at least i dont think so

yesterday was a loooong day.. had my test at 9.. was freaking scared before the test cos i only slept 1 1/2 hours then i woke up to study all the way till seating for my paper.. damn tired then lah and my whole mind was blank then during the 10mins reading time.. open up the paper and WOAH the case study damn long lah.. and i got freaked out... but at least case study can at least anyhow crap a bit lah. ANYWAY IT OVER. haha

then i met nicole to go SHOPPING!
BUT i didnt buy any clothes cos nothing nice to buy.. actually got lah but it was like $110?! for a top in guess. for a stupid piece of cloth ok.. that top was more ex then this white pants i guess.. so weird..


im being forced to go work at GRAND HYATT on monday....
I DON'T WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really dont like that place..
plus i'll have to portion the food which i haven't done in a million years.
im scared

anyway i should go off now cos meeting zi xiang to go get prizes for talentnight
dragging along my bag.. how sad. hahah see you guys in 2 days time!

i almost thought i saw my paper timing wrongly.. hahah oh wells.. i think i screwed up this paper also.. i couldn't finish in time and my mind was in a whirlpool... and now i need to cram for principle of management.. this is gonna be SO fun.. wish me luck man... i can't possibly screw up every single test.. i can't imagine what my GPA will be if this goes on.. i think i probably can forget about sleeping..

oh!!! i think that red bull really works. hahah

anyway off to start studying...

finally i came back to what i was suppose to do.. hahah start a new blog.. seems like im still lazy and too buzy to do this.. anyway i was suppose to be studying MACROECONS.. but i'm really bored now.. finished RHT test yesterday.. i think i screwed it up but ohwells.. it's over.. what can i do now.. my paper's at 3 tmr please pray for me.. i don't want my first semester to screw up.. i should get my butt back to studying.. had a long enough break..


FRIENDS PLEASE ASK ME OUT TO CATCH UP ON OUR LIVES.
I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!