I have alot alot alot alot of things to say. This week was really crap and alot of things happened.
It was an emotional rollercoaster.

First let me just talk about something that got me really really upset.

Ok you know how i always hit people. I honestly don't know why i do that but it's just something i can't control. And to me it's like if i deem myself to be an okay friend and we are quite close to joke around and stuff, i'll hit you. Not meant as to purposely hurt you or whatsoever but just a friendly thing that i do. I mean if i don't talk to you about that much stuff, i probably won't hit you.

And another thing you would have noticed if you eat with me. I tend to try other people's food and don't mind sharing food cos it just makes food taste better when you do that. For me that is lah. BUT I at least have basic manners ok. Even if I don't verbally ask if i can have some, my fork will hover halfway before taking a bit of your food. If you are so particular about hygiene and violently object you can always just SAY SOMETHING to stop me there and then. I mean I would understand.

BUT firstly, you are a work friend and my church mate from the english side. You are the sarcastic type of guy which I absolutely hate. But because you and I have more than just work relations, I tried to tolerate it. Just keep my temper and try to talk less. Well since we don't usually bump into each other, i tend to be overly friendly. Hence the hitting and stuff. Then when we were in the canteen together, I just didn't want the awkwardness to stay. So while I tried my damn best to talk about stuff, ending up hitting you sometimes SOFTLY, you could only say more sarcastic stuff. Honestly, I was reaching my limit, then you turned nasty. All i was doing was being friendly. And how the hell am i suppose to read you with all the sarcasm? Taking your food was seen as a rudeact by you. But i did "ask" since i didn't just immediately take a bit of your food. YOU NEVER SAID ANYTHING. The worst part was when you immediately started talking about hygiene and when i didn't know what was *******, you went on to say how my teachers haven't be teaching me well and i should repeat school again.

I FREAKING HAVENT STUDIED THE DAMN THING OK. SO YOU ARE SMART. OK I GET IT. BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN RUN DOWN PEOPLE LIKE THIS OK.

It just totally hit a spot in me which i have a hard time admitting to. That i forget stuff that i learn. WHICH DOES NOT FREAKING FEEL GOOD. I feel so dumb and that im wasting my time cos anyway i will forget.

THAT POINT I already gave up trying to be friendly to you. WHY SHOULD I TRY SO HARD.

AND YOU. MY FRIEND. DIDN'T FREAKING HELP ME AT ALL. OK WHAT CRAP ABOUT LIKING ME IF YOU CAN'T UNDERSTAND ME. I WAS ON THE VERGE OF CRYING OK.

but i held back.

GUYS LIKE THAT DO NOT DESERVE MY TEARS.

After getting so angry I forgot what else I have to blog about.


OHHHHHHHHHH anyway I was so busy this week, having to carry my stuff ALL BY MYSELF everywhere I go that I got so pissed, wishing that I had A TALL, STRONG, RICH, DRIVE OWN CAR boyfriend. I got so fed up i wanted to throw everything on the floor.


So i was just joking to mel that maybe i should audition people to be my bf.
HAHAHHA

ANYONE? TALL, HANDSOME, STRONG, RICH, AND DRIVES A CAR???
Apparently mel knows one. HAHAHHA