Friday, February 27, 2009

OOPS blog rotting for a long time I see.

I just got the urge to blog now. At this odd timing cos I just finished worked and bathe finished. Waiting for my hair to dry. ANYWAY i just saw Mr Quek just now. He came as an award recipient for the POSB everyday champion awards ceremony. As usual, I was busy with my VIP since the president and minister of community development, youth and sports was both on my table. When I saw my coach, I wasn't shocked I guess, since it's not out of the ordinary for him to get an award but I felt happy. How weird. I was reminded of my old training days, though not SUPER long ago, but it's like i can never go back to it again. I miss the kind of belongingless i had, the kind of motivation i had, the kind of achievements and improvements in myself. All this was only possible with a team. Since I stopped training, all these disappeared, which was what my coach didn't want. It was suppose to stay to become a habit.

I actually miss him. HAHHAAH. it's not everyday you are coached by someone worth respecting. I miss how i will feel not up to his standard and making sure i reach it the next time. It was as though being kept tight under his reins. Didn't like it last time but now, without it, I MISS IT. Who would bother to keep you under tight reins?

MAN I SERIOUSLY NEED TO JOIN A SPORT CCA. Feel super directionless after school. It's like SLACK SLACK AND SLACK. Wouldn't mind if there was cross country but it'll never be the same as in MG.

I HATE HOW I'VE LOST CONTACT WITH EVERYONE. No longer know what to talk to them about and how to talk to them.

Im like in an alone mode.

ok BYE.