I AM TIRED. TIMES A MILLION TIMES. PERIOD.

i hate being taken the wrong way. JUST FREAKING BECAUSE YOU ARE OLDER doesn't mean that you can ignore everything i say even though i am younger. ya right, go ahead and ask me to do everything i tell people to do. THEN FREAK YOU GUYS NO NEED TO COME ALREADY WHAT. I ONE MAN SHOW LAH. HOW ON EARTH CAN YOU FEEL GOOD ABOUT NOT DOING ANYTHING AND EARNING MONEY. seriously. NO FACE. just because i follow what needs to be done, i get ostracized. just because i tell people to do the things i spot that need to be done NICELY, i get rudely ignore. TRY AND TAHAN THAT. sorry i can't. im too tired to be able to do that, broke down once i got away from those ARROGANT people.

you know when im pissed, im pissed. i dont care who you are to me. im still gonna scream. i don't know why until now, my mum still dunno that. i do thateven to my friens. and i admit i do that alot at home. well home is that place where most things happens right? all the stress after work. when i scream at her, she wont try to understand from my point of view. i dont scream because i want to but because i cant help it.

i DO NOT NEED to work 2 jobs
i DO NOT NEED to save for my own school fees
i DO NOT NEED to sacrifice having a life
i DO NOT NEED to suffer so much outside

but I DO ALL THAT because i know she's getting old.
WILL IT KILL YOU TO JUST LET ME SCREAM AT YOU. i know it's like disrespect but it's the only way i get rid of all that pressure.

i mean if i really disrespect you, I WOULD NOT FREAKING WORK MY ASS OFF. i wouldn't even bother worrying about my sis's laptop and where the money's gonna come from, i wouldn't be thinking if i can pay for my school fees and can i also pay for my sister's school fee.

I AM DAMN TIRED. CAN.

ON A HAPPIER NOTE. I GOT AN A FOR FEM PROJECT. so afterall i dont suck. HEH. It lifts SUCH a big weight off my shoulders.

Recently started working at a restaurant near plaza sing. The row of restaurants beside plaza sing? The last one. A steamboat restaurant. I like the working environment. Not bad. Definitely different from banquet. It's very slack now cos it only started like a month ago and BARELY anyone knows about the restaurant. so hardly anyone comes in to eat. But it's great for me to learn on the job.

OH BTW IT'S CALLED XIANG XUE HAI.

School's less busy now that all project related shit is all over. But i have to work like MAD. Gotta earn enough for my school fees, if can my sis's school fees, my sis's laptop? OH WELLS:(

I realised i cleanly forgot about Peter's b'day. I FELT SO BAD. So i called him like the moment i realised it. So need to catch up with him. Since i started relying on the other person whom i forgot about, we kind of drifted apart. Especially like him and dawn. HAHAH. Right after that hit my mind, i realised his bday is coming soon. 15 feb. OHWELLS what matters now?

I met Giant on the bus after work onnnnn sunday i think. And he kept bugging me about what happened btw us. It doesnt hurt so much now talking about it. But somehow this little feeling of regret bugs me. Maybe i should have never said yes to start everything and maybe i should not have suggested to end it, believing that you would take it as a wake up call to try to fix things. Life getting better without all these complicated crap in it.

OHOHOH you know this CNY i wont be going to bai nian:( I CAN'T DRESS NICE NICE. MY MAXI DRESS:( but nvm. IM GONNA EARN ALOT OF MONEY THAT DAY. Plus the ang pao money i believe my relatives will give to my mum. AWESOMENESS $$$$$ :)